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Thursday, 31 December 2009

Am i sinful?

I guess i am! Feeling sinful is not a new thing for me. It sometimes dominates the whole ME haunting me and making me feel kind of disappointed and depressed for a while. I don't know whether other people ever feel like this or not. But I've been feeling many times that i am not a good person. However, each time there was just the feeling and nothing happened afterwards from my side to probably change it for the better.

I know i wasn't ever a good child for my parents,... not a good buddy for my friends and not a good sister for my siblings, .... (Thanks God there is no husband, otherwise i would add "not a good wife for my spouse" :p )
I know i am not a good person as i expect myself to be. I know all this but I really have no idea how i should confront this feeling. Maybe i should find a way to stop feeling so but it seems I'm helpless here as it is somehow outta my control. Or maybe "being good" has just a different meaning and interpretation in my OWN dictionary.

The only other way i can think of is just "trying to be a better person".... This is what i really seek and wish for myself.

Yeah, that might help.... let's see...

2 comments:

  1. Its natural for many people to feel the same way as you did, a bit inferior. Sometimes it might help looking through another person's view point coz we might not be right everytime and another person will have a whole new perspective about the same thing :-)

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  2. Yes, you are right. Sometimes, we need to look at ourselves through other people's mirror.
    However, sometimes you can see your face in your own mirror much better and clear!

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