I guess i am! Feeling sinful is not a new thing for me. It sometimes dominates the whole ME haunting me and making me feel kind of disappointed and depressed for a while. I don't know whether other people ever feel like this or not. But I've been feeling many times that i am not a good person. However, each time there was just the feeling and nothing happened afterwards from my side to probably change it for the better.
I know i wasn't ever a good child for my parents,... not a good buddy for my friends and not a good sister for my siblings, .... (Thanks God there is no husband, otherwise i would add "not a good wife for my spouse" :p )
I know i am not a good person as i expect myself to be. I know all this but I really have no idea how i should confront this feeling. Maybe i should find a way to stop feeling so but it seems I'm helpless here as it is somehow outta my control. Or maybe "being good" has just a different meaning and interpretation in my OWN dictionary.
The only other way i can think of is just "trying to be a better person".... This is what i really seek and wish for myself.
Yeah, that might help.... let's see...
Thursday, 31 December 2009
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
Less than a dog!
(for those who think they believe in their Master and are good servants for Him!)
Having a new experience to keep a pet dog for almost a couple of weeks led me to this belief that:
WE (human beings) are less than a dog! We believe that we are the best and the greatest creature God could ever make! We call ourselves the master of all creatures existing in the whole world for we have the power of thinking and they all lack!
But i fail to see where such a greatness has lied in!!
Look at what a pet dog does and what we do! You, the master of your pet dog! You might get angry with your doggy, shout at it and beat it even... But this servant will never bite the hands that feed it! It may get upset with the unfair way it was just treated by you, looking a little daggers at you.... But the other moment it will come to you again, wagging its tail and look at you lovingly.... IT IS your servant and however you treat it will never discourage it from obeying or serving you..... It never complains about the circumstances which its master (you) has led it through! It accepts anything that its master decides for it with no complaints, no impatience...nothing! It only sees the good in its master and forgets the bad for good. If needed, this servant will even risk its life to save or at least to defend its master's, though it may have been treated unfair a moment ago.... The dog keeps serving and loving its master, no matter what will happen to it, no matter where, when and how!
The dog remains such a good and faithful servant to its own master till it is around! Would you do the same for your Master?? You, who always complain to Him, the Greatest Master?
This is the question.... Be fair, judge yourself!!
Mehrnaz, 2009/04/30
P.S.
I witnessed once that my father shouted badly at our doggy and it was close to beat him even too! Poor Snoopy (You may find his picture here in below) got upset and ran away to its kennel, put his head on the ground depressed. He was treated damn unfair by my dad. But, after some minutes, maybe half an hour, when my dad stepped into the yard, to my surprise Snoopy just ran towards my dad eagerly wagging his tail! That was when my daddy felt ashamed of the way he had just treated him and started petting him and playing with him. This was just a surprise for me. Maybe if you were me, it wouldn't be that surprising for you.
I told my dad the other moment that: ''If i were Snoopy, i would never talk to you at least for a day!" ... He laughed and said sarcastically: "He is kinder and much better than you!"
He was right! And this event made me to write the above thing.
I was thinking that we are not really good servants for our own Master (God). We always complain to Him. We are not thankful enough. If something (even not that bad) happens to us against our will, we tend to blame Him! Though He knows best and knows what is good to happen for us.
Having a new experience to keep a pet dog for almost a couple of weeks led me to this belief that:
WE (human beings) are less than a dog! We believe that we are the best and the greatest creature God could ever make! We call ourselves the master of all creatures existing in the whole world for we have the power of thinking and they all lack!
But i fail to see where such a greatness has lied in!!
Look at what a pet dog does and what we do! You, the master of your pet dog! You might get angry with your doggy, shout at it and beat it even... But this servant will never bite the hands that feed it! It may get upset with the unfair way it was just treated by you, looking a little daggers at you.... But the other moment it will come to you again, wagging its tail and look at you lovingly.... IT IS your servant and however you treat it will never discourage it from obeying or serving you..... It never complains about the circumstances which its master (you) has led it through! It accepts anything that its master decides for it with no complaints, no impatience...nothing! It only sees the good in its master and forgets the bad for good. If needed, this servant will even risk its life to save or at least to defend its master's, though it may have been treated unfair a moment ago.... The dog keeps serving and loving its master, no matter what will happen to it, no matter where, when and how!
The dog remains such a good and faithful servant to its own master till it is around! Would you do the same for your Master?? You, who always complain to Him, the Greatest Master?
This is the question.... Be fair, judge yourself!!
Mehrnaz, 2009/04/30
P.S.
I witnessed once that my father shouted badly at our doggy and it was close to beat him even too! Poor Snoopy (You may find his picture here in below) got upset and ran away to its kennel, put his head on the ground depressed. He was treated damn unfair by my dad. But, after some minutes, maybe half an hour, when my dad stepped into the yard, to my surprise Snoopy just ran towards my dad eagerly wagging his tail! That was when my daddy felt ashamed of the way he had just treated him and started petting him and playing with him. This was just a surprise for me. Maybe if you were me, it wouldn't be that surprising for you.
I told my dad the other moment that: ''If i were Snoopy, i would never talk to you at least for a day!" ... He laughed and said sarcastically: "He is kinder and much better than you!"
He was right! And this event made me to write the above thing.
I was thinking that we are not really good servants for our own Master (God). We always complain to Him. We are not thankful enough. If something (even not that bad) happens to us against our will, we tend to blame Him! Though He knows best and knows what is good to happen for us.
Creating the blog
It was a while i was in thought of creating a blog , but i don't know why there was just something avoiding me. Anyhow, one night, one of my dear friends suggested to me and somehow encouraged me for that. The other day, when i got up in the morning, i just logged in and created one. Hereby, i'm thanking that special friend whom i know would atleast be a casual reader of my blog.... :-)
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