He is Great!

"Allahu Akbar" is a prominent belief in my religion which means "God is Great". I had never asked what this greatness can ever imply.
Today, i got to know!
If you have some faith, you believe that God is aware of everything. He knows what would happen. He knows what would you do. He knows every single thing that is gonna happen. He is All Aware.

His greatness lies in the place where He grants your wish at the moment, THOUGH He knows you don't deserve it, though He knows you're gonna go wicked the other moment.

Imagine you have made a promise to Him. He knows you're gonna break it, He knows you would commit a sin and disobey Him, but still He listens to you and answers your prayers out of His great kindness.

It has happened to me. It's a while that I am not having a good relation with Him. He knows this and I know myself too. I say my daily prayers reluctantly as if I am forced to. My faith in Him is somehow fading away. I am not a good servant for Him. He knows all this! But, He still answers my wishes!

Today i was badly in need of something to happen, something which was almost impossible to happen. I begged Him and asked Him to make it happen and kept my fingers crossed for it. I told myself with grief: "How dare you. You are asking and expecting God to answer you while you never are willing to listen to Him?" .
I was asking something impossible. However, to my wonder, only less than an hour, the miracle simply happened and God granted my wish again this time also.

Isn't this Greatness? Truly, He is Great!
I felt ashamed.
Would you do a favor for even your loved ones, if you know beforehand that the other moment they would sell you down the river? If you know they would betray you, if you know they would not back you, if you know when you need them they would disappear, would you grant them even their trivial simple wishes? You would never!

"God, If I were you, I would never listen to my such servant's wishes, let alone of answer them! You are really Great God!"

I am following my heart this time!!!

I can dare say this is the first time I am just following my heart in my relationship with him!
My heart has made me confident here. It is crying out "stay away from him for a while or at least don't be in touch much!".
This is sort of a new experience I am being through. I never was inspired to follow my heart like this!
I used to follow my wisdom and sometimes my emotions, but now i am following my HEART! I am sure that my heart never lies to me and what it is now inspiring is only for my convenience and my benefits.
I wanna listen to my heart this time and stay away from him for a while or not be in touch the way i used to , though my bloody emotions tempt to pop in every now and then.
I am not inquisitive to find out the reason behind MY heart asking me such-and-such, because I do trust my heart this time and I don't know why I am pretty sure my heart is right and is not taking me far away from my own place.

I had never believed this : " When the heart speaks, the mind (wisdom) finds it indecent to object!" But now, I do!

All this never means my love towards him has been decreased. More or less, I am loving him the very same as before! My love may get stronger, but it would not fade away.
The tree of my love for him has now strong roots in my heart and though fruitless, it will stay green and fresh forever.

I am not taking back my love!
I am not ignoring him!
I am staying away and I don't wanna be in touch much because I LOVE him so much! &
I am missing him a lot!